My chest is so heavy this isn’t good I don’t feel good.
august 31st, 11:59pm
september 1st, 12:00am
Depression is weird because normal tasks can seem small one day and huge the next like making microwave ramen noodles goes from being 1 step in my head- make microwave ramen noodles - to being so many steps- stand up, walk to the kitchen, get the package of noodles out of the pantry, take off the plastic wrapper, add the water to the line, etc etc etc and that’s part of why The Life Things get so big because everything that is usually a no-brainer becomes this big exercise and it can literally feel like it’s just too much. Today I was walking from my car to my apartment and it was so hot outside and I was like maybe 20 steps from my door and I just kept thinking “I feel like I can’t even do this, I don’t know how I’m doing this” but y’know, obviously I could and I did.
Anyway I’ve been feeling not as great, especially this morning and again tonight, and I wish I could just pull myself up out of it but it doesn’t work that way, it’s not fast and easy, it’s hard work sometimes but it’s hard work that I know I can do so I just keep doing it until it starts feeling easy again.
It’d be easier to wrap my head around Getting Up And Doing The Life Things in the mornings if I could get an encouraging wake-up call from Amy Poehler.
I have no time for any of those celebrities (male and female) who felt the need to tweet things like, “lol all you’ll find on my phone are pictures of pizza!!! hahaha~”
stop trying to separate yourselves from an invasion of privacy that happened to your friends and colleagues, I can see your subtle self righteousness
let alone all the people who have tweeted anything more directly hurtful or passive to stay relevant, my shitlist just got so much longer
Synonyms are weird because if you invite someone to your cottage in the forest that just sounds nice and cozy, but if I invite you to my cabin in the woods you’re going to die.